TUMBLR PIX & Y

And because i'm in a damn random (and a little emotional) mood, first thing first.. I'mma post some pix from tumblr ^^ hehe. 

 I wna be able to dress like her, and still look awesomely chic omggggg *self-conscious max

 *stabs self, why she so pretty??!?!?!?!

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You can skip the part below cause this is the only space for me to type all these..

Anyway, I've been having random small talks with Y under my block for the past few days.. Really becoming a routine alr, though deep down in my heart i know this isn't good. I shldn't be doing this every single day, but i really can't help it :( "I miss you" starts appearing in my dictionary, and it doesn't stop until i see him at night; furthermore, this has alr been going on for every single day~ I don't know if i'm being selfish and greedy at the same time, but i really really really wna be his priority. Keep having thoughts of all of these ending, i really don't wna be one of his options.. :( Although he assures me here and there, and still meeting me every night without fail (that is if he isn't out of bb with his friends alr..) I am still afraid. Ya'll know when it comes to a point where texts aren't so frequent and talks become more mundane??? I'm alr half way there, the texting part. Alr cut down by so freaking much y'all know??? Everything else has moved a step up, other than that part??? It is only through texting that I feel like he's still there with me when he's not here physically.. What am i to do when he doesn't do that as often as he did alr... Help???

TOUCH YOUR HEART

I know many of you must have had read about this story before, but omg my heart's still crying..

I was walking around in a Target store, when I saw a cashier hand this little boy some money back. The boy couldn’t have been more than 5 or 6 years old. The cashier said, “I’m sorry, but you don’t have enough money to buy this doll.” Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ”Granny, are you sure I don’t have enough money?” The old lady replied: ”You know that you don’t have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.” Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look a round. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. “It’s the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas. She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.” I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her afterall, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. “No, Santa Claus can’t bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.” His eyes were so sad while saying this. “My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.” My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said: “I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.” Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me “I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won’t forget me. I love my mommy and I wish she doesn’t have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.” Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly. I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. “Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?” “OK,” he said, “I hope I do have enough.” I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money. The little boy said: “Thank you God for giving me enough money!” Then he looked at me and added, “I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give it to my sister. He heard me!” “I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn’t dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.” “My mommy loves white roses.” A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket. I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn’t get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young woman had passed away. I couldn’t stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever.. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.

Took it from tumblr anyway, haha.

ERMZ, CURSE MY PERIOD.

Thanks to cramps ytd and today, I had to stay home and that's equivalent to using comp the whole day.. And when i use the comp for too long, i tend to shop A LOT. So yep, bought smth from Gmarket again :( Srsly, that website is gna make me bankrupt lor. It's soooooooo cheap that it's a sin manzx.

MAJORLY BROKE NOW :( And i'm still spending so much $$$, furthermore pay's not in yet cause there was a change in the HR girl and urghhhhhhh. HELPZ?

A few other random pictures from my iphone itself, thus explains the quality. Camera's batteries are spoiling on me :( Cldn't charge them at all.

The skirt that Alethia baby got it for me at 12$?!?!? Dirt cheap.

Is it only me or did my bruise look big?!? Y said it was the smallest he'd ever seen though..

STUDY HARD. LOVE HARD. PLAY HARD.

Dad came home just now and decided to give me a lecture on my future, what kind of jobs i shld take, what kind of boyfriend i shld bring home and when i shld start giving them allowances.. I know it isn't right for me to think this way, but come on~ i'm only 20 this year, why are they pressurizing me to alr start thinking of the path that i wna take in th future. I'm the kind of person who'll take one step at a time, and not the kind who'll plan like 5 or 10 years ahead. I really cannot do that, it's just not who i am. But anyway, i really gotta agree on the fact that they ain't young anymore.. Perhaps all they want to see is their own daughters being successful in life, be in the right career (that earns alot of $$$) and ultimately marry the right guy. Which parents wouldn't want their own children to take this path?? But reality isn't so simple, sometimes we think we're in the right career because it's what we all wna do.. Take for eg, i'm really interested in Public Relations and Marketing. But all these doesn't guarantee me a job that earns alot of $$$ right??? I don't know.. And well, we'll meet guys whom parents' would definitely not approve of, but love comes at an unexpected time; and most definitely, you fall in love with unexpected people. I'd never expected myself to have taken a liking to Y, but y'all know such things are hard to say. The time you spent tgt with each other is crucial; whether you click with one another; whether you share the same interests etc.. You don't expect to just fall in love with maybe the CEO of your company (earns big bucks, considerate, filial etc) right? Love itself is something that nobody can really explain.. Some say it's love when there's trust, honesty, mutual love etc. But for others, love may be something else. No one can really define what love is. So yep, after typing so much, if you still do not get my drift.. What i'm trying to bring across is the fact that life is unexpected, there are so many things that are unpredictable, so hard to tell what's gna happen next.. But what we all have to do is to take one step at a time, embrace and treasure each moment and not worry about what the future holds. Can you imagine if we all worry about how the world will end in 2012?!?!? Optimistic people will make full use of their time now and enjoy, do the craziest things and not regret anything else. Pessimistic people on the other hand, will start worrying about how the world will actually end in 2012, and maybe panicking?? I don't know.. But what's the point, if the world's gna end then let it end. Study hard, love hard, play hard. At least you've alr done things that you'll not regret what, right? Alright, time for dinz with family :)

A picture to end things off :)

PIECES OF YOU; PICTURES OF ME

I really wna blog about this particular thing here, but on second thoughts i'd better hold back. Nothing good ever comes out of it whenever i blog about this particular topic. A little hint: I'm happy, thanks to Y :)

Here's a little collage of me, in case you've alr forgotten how i look like ;)

SKYSCRAPER

I've been listening to this song recently, it's damn addictive?!?!?

 

Go listen k? <3 Hehe. anyway i know i've really not been updating this space but uh, I really cannot find any time leh. Just a short update here..

Am having mixed feelings about starting school soon cause i've been slacking off (as usual), but because it'll be with yiwen.. thus the looking-forward-to-school part of me is damn sexcited about it hahahaha. 

Need to dye my hair damn desperately cause the black roots are fucking ugly.. and i was trying to delay a few more months without anyone noticing (no $$$) but then this Y went to comment on it ytd :( Broke my heart hahahaha *punch his face. Yep, so i'm gna get Liese Hair Dye (4th time using) and dye it on my own in the morning, before heading over to Esther bb's place to get my hair cut after so many fucking months.. 

OKAY UPDATE LIAO, HEHE TOODLES.

LOOTS IN BEGINNING OF AUGUST

HAHAHAHAHA GOSH IT'S ONLY 13TH OF AUGUST TODAY AND I'VE ALR SPENT $1XX IN LESS THAN 1 WEEK MY GOD?!?!?!?! I really have to attend some self-control workshops or what, i am such a shopaholic :( Sigh, even though i'm saving pictures up and telling myself that i have to control but urgh.. NOT HELPING AT ALL. Hello pay faster come into my bank, really need to save my ass. Haha. Okay, here goes my loots..

$24.00

 $24.90

The rest of the korean apparels add up to less than $15 per piece; it is fucking worth it.. OKAY I NEED TO STOP FOR THIS MTH ALR NO MORE NO MORE LOL. Yep, i've so much i wna post, maybe later? Put them into scheduled posts hehe. Toodles.