STUDIO STORE BBQ

Right, this BBQ happened last month, and i'm only uploading them onto my space now; one month later heeheh. Am i awesome or whatzxz. Anyway, it'd alr been up in my fb so yep! I can't exactly rmb what happened, just that i met Joyce&Jieying before heading over.. And that i went back with Jieying&Alston after that. HAHAHA.

Enjoy the pix ya? I don't think i have the full set of pix though so make do with this!?!

FML PLEASE?

I know i haven't been updating for like damn longzxz but forgive me k? 've been working my ass off, so freaking tired.. Finally gotten my well deserved break; 3 days long without work heheehe. Anyway i just wna complain abit cause i am really damn impulsive leh?!? I bought like 3 pieces of clothes online, plus 2contacts lens!!! I've like 6 pairs of contact lens that've yet to reach me yet.. Imagine all 6 reach tgt lol! Esther bb chided me somemore, say she didn't know i've 6 pairs of eyes HAHAHAHA srsly lor?!? Anyway, i'll try to make it a point to post and save picts of stuffs that i've bought online so that i can keep track of them, and hopefully try to control myself better :P

$24.00

$25

$25.60

$25.50

REALLY FML HOR?!?? :( WNA CRY LA FOR GOD'S SAKE I NEED TO CONTROL MYSELF?! I HAVE LIKE 3 PIECES OF THAT CHIFFON CARDIGAN ALR LOR?! I've bought both the wine red and coral red, and i have another piece in nude color! EXACTLY THE SAME?!?! CAN YOU BELIEVE ME?!?! I CAN'T!!!! MAJOR SIGH. Okay, i'mma go edit the picts on shilei's birthday then i'll post again! <3


*To cel my 1000th post, here's another version of 2PM's PPPPPPUT PUT YOUR HANDS UP!

Okay, that was actually just an excuse hehe.

THOUGHTS. EMOTIONS. WHAT'S HAPPENING.

(I really hope that you guys can actually understand why I'm feeling this way. Maybe you can try putting yourself in my shoes and you might get the drift; and again, all these are really my heartfelt thoughts, not pinpointing anyone. I repeat, not gna name names, but if you think you're one of the few below, then congrats maybe?)


Anyway.. I'm feeling quite expressive and emotional now and i've so much on my mind on what to blog about so yep, here i am! :) I read a little bit of my previous blog posts, back in 2009. Haha, cause that's when i have the most blog posts in that year alone. Guess i really went through a lot that year huh ;)

And as i was saying.. I'd read through some of my blog posts and got reminded of so many stuffs. I saw my own birthday post and thought to myself: "How can 2years fly passed so quickly?!" I can really still remember the exact details of how i'd actually celebrated with the different grps of people; be it my own family members, my friends, my classmates.. Really thankful that i'd them during that period of time. But alas, as one's saying, friends come and go. They really do come and go. People change. You change. I change. Not gna say for good or for bad but still, they left my life. I was just telling to PY&Aihua ytd because they were really so damn sweet to accompany for work for 2hrs, then they went back home and came out again to meet me for supper. I mean srsly, they really super sugary sweet ^^ We weren't this close the other time, and true, they did things that upset me sometimes in the past. But as i've said, people change, for good or for bad.. They're the ones who'd changed for good. We're so much closer now :)

For those who're planning to leave my life, OR had alr left my life.. Thank god. I really don't need friends like you. I hate to put in so much effort into a particular friendship and then one day it just disappears. I hate it alot. The first and only priority I'll put in front of any one of you is, and will always be yiwen. I mean srsly, this girl and i have telepathy, for real. I hate to say this but i love her. She's always there everytime i needed someone to talk to/to rant. She's someone whom i can really count on when i need help. Not someone who just leaves, because someone else she deemed more important enters her life. I'm not gna name anyone, but you shld know who you are. If i'm not contacting you at all, you should know why.

I like to see people putting in efforts in sustaining our friendships. If i see that effort, i'll be more than willing to put in extra effort to contact you, to meet up with you, and more importantly, to keep our friendship. But if you're more of the 'I'll contact you only when i need you' kind, then fuck off. Cause i really need to empathize again, i don't need friends like you. IF you contact me again (for god knows what reason) i'll be there of course. But take note, it'll just be one of my many masks talking to you, not the real me. The real me will not contact you, AT ALL. I would rather not waste my time on such people, really.

I was wondering. in the noon, that i've been planning for so many of my different cliques' events; be it birthdays, gatherings etc. I'll always be the one planning. People always assume, 'oh i'll just need to wait for cherie to contact me' OR 'isn't cherie the one organizing?' Srsly, fuck you. I know some of you guys are really busy, but have you guys even thought of me at all? Ain't i busy too? Can't i be busy too? It makes me wonder if my birthday comes, will anyone of you even plan a birthday surprise for me? Or maybe just a simple gathering? Will your do it? Will you? :( I'm not specifically pinpointing any one of you. I'm just listing out my thoughts. I'll leave it at the top of my blog for a while, so people can actually see that i do have my own problems. Maybe you guys will help me out? I don't want to shoulder such a heavy responsibility. I can't. It's too heavy..

On the other hand, thank you to those who'd been really, sincerely helping out with the plannings; specifically people like benedict, kenho, py, hsin rui etc.. Really damn thankful for friends like them. :)



SO EMOTIONAL. :( I feel so good typing all of these out. I'm not as cheerful as i seem to be. I just don't like people to be affected by me.