Rosesxpuck

IM FCUKING GOING CRAZY NOW !!
AHHHHHH . SHIT.


sometimes i wonder if yoo purposely did that to spite miie.
or to show that yoo get to talk to him and i don . IS IT ?

i hope yoo have no evil intentions.
& i hope nothing will go wrong between us.
so what if yoo get to chat happily with him ?
im JEALOUS i admit .

WHATEVER. im so pissed off with everything now .
i just wish i can die . or or . like what HEE said .
no love in this world and everyone kills each other ? =X
sadists everywhere .

just how many more are yoo gonna cheat ?
3 ? 4 ? pls spare a thought for people around yoo.
yoo may enjoy doing that . but what bout others around yoo ?
unless yoo want alls to hate yoo . FINE i have nothing to say .

i really don noe what've got into miie ?
im getting more and more unreasonable):
* yoo should have told miie earlier . DUMB.
yoo made my life so beautiful and colourful .
but later on . yoo destroyed it . WHY ?
i noe its MY fault in the beginning. and i regretted it .
i REGRETTED IT ohkays . i noe it wont change anything.
but im very very sorriie for hurting yoo so much .
i've tried so hard to let yoo noe how much i love yoo.
but what was it in the end . fickled minded ?
i don noe and i don wish to noe anything .
it'll just pierced deep into my heart.
i wish FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART that i could be by your side .
and be the one yoo love(:
*and i wish i noe what yoo're thinking now):

everytime i look into the past
my tears can never control itself. its never the same anymore.
those words that yoo've said to miie ; those promises that we've made together.
ALL down the drain.
sometimes i wonder ; if yoo ever miss miie as much as i did .
i noe. whatever i say now ; can never change what yoo're thinking now.
yoo could have told miie your choice in the beginning.
but why now ? why now that we're no longer like in the past.
why is it now then i finally knew it .
it hurts miie more than anything else in the world.
this is a feeling i've never experienced before.

how much i hope for a miracle to happen.
but it will never happen.
how much i hope yoo'll be by my side.
but it will never ever happen.
how MUCH i hope that we could be like the past.
but i NOE it will NEVER EVER EVER happen.