Finished with the 600-word film review and the 400-word journal entry for this week! All that's left is the PR blog this friday and some researching + reading up on the upcoming 1,500-word essay on the organizational/operational structure of a print industry and a 1,000-word essay on privacy...... Yup okay can hahahahaha. I have two more weeks to finish up 2,500 words, shldn't be a problem right? :)
Anyway, I don't know if i shld be posting all those crappy thoughts onto this blog cause i'm afraid... what if one day someone sees it, and tells him or.... what if he sees this himself.... My pride and ego will just go down the drain, lol. Okay la wtv, not so unlucky right?? Anyway, if he ever sees this, well.... i don't know haha. Will deal with it when the time comes.
And i know i shldn't be acting like how i was the previous post, i really shldn't. Because i don't have the right to be. From now on, i shall not be upset over such issues. At the very most, i shall be upset at myself for the fact that i'm still not moving on. I'll not blame him for any other stuffs because i know deep down, it's really not his fault. I trust that he didn't do that on purpose, and i believe that the feelings we had were real... At least at that point of time. Not anymore tho :'( But deep down, there'll always be him somewhere inside my heart, even if it's a tiny space. It's special, he is, what we had. Even tho i'd said my trust in him is broken, but i still can't bring myself to blame him. I still believe in him. I guess i can really understand what it means when people say that there's just this certain person whom you will go back to, time after time, heartbreak after heartbreak, and you don't even know why. Although it didn't happen to me, cause there isn't a time after time, there isn't a heartbreak after heartbreak, it only happened once... But once is enough, i know that wtv the future holds for us, for me, for him, if there ever comes a day when we'll get another chance, i'll still choose him, no doubt about that. But i guess this isn't gna happen anytime soon, so i shall tidy up my feelings and tuck them safe inside, somewhere.
I feel likea man now, haha okay random. Sorry i promised a happy post but here i am, blogging about my thoughts and feelings again. :( I'll try to be a happier girl, so i can take happier pictures and blog happier posts :)
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