GENTING/KL

Gna head off to Genting tonight, and KL on wednesday~ Hehe, will be back on thursday night so don't miss me too much ya? <3 Hahahahaha okay being so thick-skin now~ Anyway, here are two gif for y'all! <3 Have a nice week ahead dears! :)

Okay, i'll be back soon. Toodles~

Froyo love #2

Here's another day that i'm blogging today (18th April) Hahahahaha. Sorry i just want to separate my posts so that y'all don't have to read too lengthy ones, and i can also schedule this for another day! :) Anyway, went to work @CCK ytd (17th April) with.... guess who????

My one and only Esther bb!!!!!! <3 Fav girl to work with!

Hehe, she's so cute i know right! ;) Anyway, time passed really fast while we were working and in a blink of an eye, she ended work! Thank god she stayed for another hr or so to accompany me so time passed even faster hehe <3 We did a lot of gifs too and surprisingly it was quite fun :P Had spicy nuggets and mos milk tea for dinner :)

Alright, too many alr! I shall post up the gifs soon! <3

Froyo love #1

Before i start on any pictures, i just want to thank the kind stranger who'd left a comment on my post and giving me all sorts of advice to deal with my heartbreak. It was really kind of this person to type out so much :) Thank you so so so much :') I will remember everything you'd said! :)

Anyway, i've officially ended my one and only paper on Monday afternoon~ Went to work after lunch with classmates and met Vanessa.P for my second lunch! <3 Hehe, thanks bby for accompanying throughout the night!

Hi bby! <3

Instagram #4

I'm really sorry about the instagram photos cause my phone is always with me while my camera's always enjoying itself at home, haha okay lame. Anyway, this is gna be a scheduled post because i know i wldn't blog anything to next few days/week. Gna be studying for my one and only paper on the 16th... Wish me luck, i wna pass this with flying colourssssss :) Pictures up!

What to do?

I don't know why i'm feeling like this the past few days, ever since i was left alone to sleep a few days ago.... Scary thoughts have been slipping in and out of my mind, i can't control them at all. The worst thing is, i thought i'd alr put the past behind me... It turns out that i haven't. I am still so affected by you. I can remember everything that had happened between us, not word for word but the memories can't stop coming back. It was so bad that i really didn't wna go to school on thursday cause i thought i might just burst into tears... And also, i can't seem to tell anybody about this because it's always about the same issue over and over again. It's always the fact that i can't seem to move on, can't seem to let go; especially recently when all i cld think of is us. Why is this happening to me? :( Am i doing this the wrong way? Am i not supposed to imagine it didn't happen at all? I always thought i cld pretend that everything was a lie, i didn't meet you, we didn't share anything..... but reality is a bitch, it really is. I don't cry anymore, but i'm still aching... My heart, my mind. I can't think about anything else except for this, it's kinda affecting my everyday routine. What a great timing... My exam's only one week later... I don't know how to share this with anybody at all, i can't be talking about this over and over again. My exam's wld definitely be affected, i don't wna fail my favourite module :'( But at the same time, i can't possibly keep it in my heart forever, i feel so suffocated. Like my emotions are about to burst, but it's not the time to do it. I don't know what i want. I don't know if i want us to be friends again.. or just strangers. A familiar stranger. Sigh omg i don't know what to do, can someone please enlighten me? I don't want this to affect my studies, but it's affecting me. It's affecting how i see things normally. I feel like i have no friends, no one to turn to, no one who really understands where i'm coming from. I feel so lonely. I don't feel like going into any r/s... ever. If it means i have to go thru the whole process again, i feel like i cld just die... I know i'm not supposed to stereotype any guys because not everybody is gna treat me like how he did, but i can't help it. I'm so afraid.. so sick of everything now. Tell me what shld i do???